There is not a day that goes by
That I do not think of the pain
That I cannot see her face
I can’t make it go away
It’s on my mind when I first open my eyes
And it’s there all day long
Just like my favorite song
But the lyrics are all wrong
I try to rewrite them
trying to do anything that will mean that
you did not do
what i know you did
I know I told u I forgive u,
I just can’t seem to forget
even though I tried to move past it
The pain isn’t done with me yet
It follows me
prodding me
constantly with me
not letting me breathe
without blood in my lungs
my heart bleeds
I keep on crying until I think I’ve run out of tears
But I get no relief,
I can’t even sleep
I guess you’re not forgiven
It’s to the point that
I can’t even look at you
cuz when your arms are around me
I smell her perfume
and the kiss that I thought
belonged to only me
has me wondering
if it made her weak
Did her knees shake like mine do
when your lips touched her skin?
I don’t know what I was thinking by allowing you to stay
Cuz if u could do that to me, then there’s nothing to throw away
How can I move on,
when all I can see,
is your hands on her skin?
How can we ever start again?
where could we begin?
with your arms around her?
with your tongue in her mouth?
with your hips between her legs?
How can I erase that image from my memory?
I can’t erase my memories, so ur not forgiven
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